We used to have this value education class every year when I was in school and the same question was asked at the beginning of the lesson: who are you?
I’d write my name. I’d say I was a daughter, a sister, a Scorpio (I don’t know why, but I take great pride in saying that I’m a Scorpio). And then I’d write some things that described me, like “I am someone who likes to read” or something around that line. But as I answered this question, I always felt empty. I felt like I didn’t know myself and that frustrated me a lot. Who was I? Why was it so hard to answer this question?
All these years I spent in school, I wasted most of it trying to “find myself”. I know there is a romantic idea of life being a journey to understand yourself and to attain self actualization or whatever but finally, I realize the answer to this question. I need not have a deep and insightful view about myself, something, I guess I’ve been searching for. All these deep insightful things I’d read were over rated and had warped my idea of how I should be. It had made me feel almost ashamed that I wasn’t a certain type of person, and that I will forever regret.
So, who am I?
I am a daughter.
I am a sister.
I am a Scorpio.
I am someone who likes to read.
I am filled with regrets.
I can’t “live the moment”.
I have a pretty pessimistic view about life.
I want to write amazing, beautiful stuff but I continue to fail because I keep using words like stuff (any advice? Anyone?)
I have extremely bizarre tastes in whatever I do. I enjoy reading poems about heartbreaks and death but then again, I often find myself reading memes about Donald Trump’s hair.
I love Pirates of the Caribbean but I also have a hard drive full of Korean drama.
This is who I am, as weirdly normal and boring as it may be. Simple as that ^_^. I am not a sophisticated chic girl who goes around inspiring people and that’s okay.
I’m finally letting go of this mask I’ve been unknowingly(?) holding all this time.
hi, i am pushkar and i am just like you. nice to meet you. though i am a boy. 🙂
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Hi Pushkar:) I’m really glad to have met you too. Hope we’ll get to know each other better through all this💛
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😀 😀 hope so………! 🙂 🙂
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This really touched me today and I wanted to ask if it would be okay if I reposted this on my blog leaving all of your information with thoughts regarding what you posted and then adding items to it from Who I am? Would you be okay with that? thank you
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Of course! And thank YOU! Not just for asking but reading it through 🙂
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